I Love You

Christmas is about to come. I’m all excited since I really can’t wait to fly back home. My lovely hometown in which I’ve raised for over 22 years.

The moment I had last year flashes back on my mind. The moment I met you in about Christmas time. The moment when I started to learn the meaning of life.

I have always been so thankful for having you come in my life. I could never imagine what I would be like without you. You are such an angel. You stood by me for always when I was so down, when I had no trust on anyone, when I was deeply hurt. You’ve even never been asked but you’re always there for me when I need someone to talk.

You offered me a true friendship that will never end. I know how much you care about me, how much you love me. You may be so far away, but no one truly knows and understands me more than you do, not even my mother nor myself.

I always remember the way you say “I want to make you happy” or when you often call me in the morning I wake up and say “good morning babygirl.. how did you sleep?” or how you say “I love you” anytime you end the call.

You have cost a lot of bucks for making long distance call just to be able to hear my voice, but you never mind it at all. You have spent a lot of your free time for chatting with me and making sure if I was doing alright but sometimes when you weren’t around and lived your own life I made a drama as if you left me or didn’t care about me anymore. I realize I was so selfish at times. But it was an old story long ago, when a little Kiky was stepping into her real world.

I sometimes wish we lived close to each other or at least not as far as the distance between United States-Indonesia. Though it’s true that good things are hard to get and it requires efforts to make it come true.

You’re my “bestest” bestfriend and I do have love for you that will never end even when we get descent.

I have many dreams I want to achieve in my life. But if I was to choose one to fulfill my entire life, I would only want to see you in person and feel your touch.. Just one touch and that would be enough for the rest of my life (but I know both of us will want more )

Thank you for being so sweet to me. I love you as much as you do for me. And nothing can change that.

Bleeding Rose

A bleeding rose was left on the freeway.
She was waiting for the time to pass her away.
She was once a rose with a crown,
But destiny brings her to turn brown.

A bleeding rose was such a sweetheart,
Until life taught her the pain of broken heart.
Now a dying rose is losing her beauty.
She hungers for someone’s honesty.

A bleeding rose means nothing to the world.
She’s no diamond, she’s no gold.
Nobody would pick her up for his own.
She’ll only be left into oblivion in the town.

-Kiky-

Love You

It’s been so long since the first time we talked
You stand by me for always no matter what I’m going through
I will never forget the times we’ve shared
I don’t know what the future holds for us,
but my life is much sweeter since I met you
You’re the sun that shines in my skies
You show me all the things I’ve never learned in my life
I’ll keep you safe in my heart till the end of time,
although maybe someday we go our separate ways
I will always love you..forever baby.

-Kiky-

If Forever Is What Is Meant For Us

I’ve been all by myself for a long while,
never wished someone to come afterwards to make me smile

That day could be a coincidence when we ran into each other,
since I had no expectation to make a bond any further

Days passed, sometimes I hoped I would be able to see you once more,
and give me a chance to get to know you like an open door

I never knew if you felt the same way until you reached me,
You make me feel as if I am a special one and that’s what I wanna be

It’s been some time and I can feel it’s getting stronger,
Our way has started short but is slowly becoming longer

I would like you to hold me for as long as we last,
and live the day for today and forget the past

I write your name in my heart and want you to stay forever..
if forever is what is meant for us.

-Kiky-
Wednesday, June 4, 2008 21:00

Some things you have to know..

Love is patient; Love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs…
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

When ignorant people see someone who is old, they are disgusted and horrified, even though they too will be old some day. I thought to myself; I don’t want to be like the ignorant people. After that, I couldn’t feel the usual intoxication with youth anymore.

When ignorant people see someone who is sick, they are disgusted and horrified, even though they too will be sick some day. I thought to myself; I don’t want to be like the ignorant people. After that, I couldn’t feel the usual intoxication with health anymore.

When ignorant people see someone who is dead, they are disgusted and horrified, even though they too will be dead some day. I thought to myself; I don’t want to be like the ignorant people. After than, I couldn’t feel the usual intoxication with life anymore.

Only Love Can Speak

I wanna be a shining star upon your skies
I wanna be your memory that never dies
I wanna be the only one to feel your kiss
and forever be the only thing you always miss

You cleared my mind when I was lost
You gave me strength when I was down,
sheltered my heart when it was hurt
Everything I need, you give me more

Baby..
You stepped into my life to give me love,
brighten my heart as it was desolate
You light a candle in the darkness,
guide me to explore the meaning of love
There’s no more things in this world I want the most
since you have come to touch my heart..

I wish I could show you my feeling so much more
But there are times I find myself being speechless
I would never know what tomorrow may tell
Though I believe only love can speak

By : Kiky

Touch

touches your face…
doesn’t feel your skin, but it is so soft
I touch your hair, so soft..
silk in my fingers, but it’s just air
I touch you…our fingertips meet…I dream
I touch…I see you…I reach…just a ghost ,
I touch…my heart collides with yours…
I open my eyes…just a touch

By : Shannon

Luv.. Luv.. Luv..

Can anyone define what a true love really means? Ever wonder the way you feel for someone who means so much for you is love or just an obsession?

Love is intangible. Sometimes when someone thought he was in love, that could only be an infatuation.
I bet you guys were often in a situation when you met a very attractive girl that gazing into her eyes would make your whole body tingle and your heart started to tremble as you got enchanted by her beauty. Well this is what we call as “infatuation”. It is only an obsession, a short term of strong like feeling. Next everyone will fall into infatuation and grow in love.

Love is more than just a cinderella story. Only feeling that is involved in infatuation. But a true love is a combination of strong feeling and commitment. Let us recall Saint Exupery’s quote which says that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but more in looking outward together in the same direction.
Don’t ever say you love someone unless you would be willing to be committed to her.

My Personality Type and Multiple Intelligences Test Results

As I was just passing through silas’ blog I found a very interesting stuff lol. Yep I took these tests from mypersonality.info and here are the results!

My Personality Type
It says that I’m an “INFJ- the confidant” person:
“INFJs, making up an estimated 1% of all people, are the most rare type (males even more so). They are introspective, caring, sensitive, gentle and complex people that strive for peace and derive satisfaction from helping others. INFJs are highly intuitive, empathetic and dedicated listeners. These traits tend to act as a “tell me what’s wrong” sign on their forehead, hence the nicknames Confidant, Counselor or Empath. INFJs are intensely private and deeply committed to their beliefs.”
“INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.”

You Speak to My Heart

I gaze upon the starry skies

Wishing you were here to brighten this heart that dies

So many days and nights I’ve been spending with you behind this curtain

Sometimes I hope you would be the only one to ease my pain

You’ve stepped into my life and left an unforgettable footprint

It saddens my soul to think you’re not here to paint upon my olive-oil skin tint

I do have this great feeling for you, and it’s getting stronger each day

Though hard for me to realize you’re so far away

I could only weep whenever I needed to be held in your arms

Yet your sweetness and words are enough to keep me warm

You’re the one to be there to fill this empty space and loneliness

Kindling a heart of mine as you spoil me with a bunch of happiness

I want you to explore me like the seven seas

And be the shelter I look for like birds in trees

Kiky – March 11, 2008 9:54 pm

Do I look better with long or short hair?

Me with long hair

Me with short hair

Is this love or just an infatuation?

I’ve learned the word of love. I’ve learned the feel of love. I’ve learned the pain of love. And so I’ve learned the art of love.

Sometimes I wish I would only know love for once in my life. Yet in life we might not get all we hoped. Still it’s clear in my mind the way I lost my hope, my only hope. That day was so blue..yes it was. Though we can never live in past.

So I’ve learned to survive. And this spirit brought me here today. Someone who once contemplated suicide has known the meaning of life.

Day after day and time passed away. It’s been more than 3 months I live my life without him. I could only accept his way and I should be happy for that no matter what. I’ve been tryin to distract my mind away from this pain. Got some more friends I tried to smile.

I’d never know if God would send me someone to cheer me up afterwards. But the truth is I feel joy since he came into my life. He’s been a good friend of mine. I know I just met him like a month or so after I broke up with my former boyfriend. He fills that empty space though. Talking to him really makes me feel so comfortable. Just feels like I’ve known him over years. I didn’t even want to realize how far we are apart from each other.. All I know is no one treats me as good as him. I do feel that he’s the first one who can talk to my heart.

I do have a feeling for him. Probably too soon to call it as love though. Or this might be an infatuation? I really have no idea. I’m too shy to admit, too shy to reveal this feeling.. And I don’t even know what he feels for me too.. Does he feel the same way like I do? Only God and him to know.. What should I do?

I did cry on the other night when I missed him so bad. Or is this a form of love? I got no clue..

I guess I’ll only have to wait. Cuz I know love always needs time and space to grow at the level which will satisfy to both parties.

Silent in The Stillness

I guess this weekend wouldn’t be too different from any other weekends I’ve passed.. Just enjoying my loneliness..

I wish I could find the light to lead me home. I miss the time I shared my life with someone.

Time will always fly and only time will tell if someday I would find my enlightenment.

I don’t know for how long I should wait. Everything has been written above. I could only try yet my fate is for truth…